Where the h*** am I...

Now for my boohoo vent session... haha!!! For the first time in my life, I feel like I'm stupid at a job. Its amazing... Truly, have no brain... I talked to the owner yesterday while doing errands and it sounded like they may move me to a different part of the business. If they do, I will learn all I can and with some luck, be Virgo about it and become good at it. My resume shows a ton of experience in lots of different industries. It's not a driving job (shuttling customers), but maybe I can find Peace in the job. With the feeling of being stupid, it does hurt me, because I know I'm not. I know I'm misunderstood and have been my whole life. I'm extremely lucky to have a place to live, even though panic sets in every time I think about how much money I owe them. Even if I packed up and moved out, I still owe them money. I'm flat broke, buying the food items I cant get from the food bank via cc, which is maxed out. Trying to keep what little money I have in my checking account (no savings) help cover my 3 bills due next week that the paycheck coming in on friday doesn't cover. The job I kept offers the potential for cash tips, which helps, so I do have a few dollars available. Its a good feeling to know I finally have a job again, but it forces me to figure out how to either get more hours or seek out another job a couple days a week. Panic......... Anyway, feeling lonely, fighting off depression, tears and fear what will become of me at the age I am. A good day for a good cry. Note to all, Do Not watch "Sideways" if you're questioning everything in your life and already feeling like a failure. It is R and a great ass shot of T.H.Church... If you're Miles on any level in your life, hold off on watching it, unless you want to learn about wine and see a naked man run down the street... haha! No chocolate in the house, need a brain boost. Guess thats all for the moment. Hugs