What is the issue?

From 1988 to 2003, I worked and fully supported myself. Now, I can't get an interview. I have a college education and haven't been able to put it to work. I've been looking for a decent job for the past 2 years and nothing. I worked a minimum wage job for a short time and got robbed at gun point. I'm a lousy waitress. I'm a skilled Barista. I'm an okay tax agent. I'm a safe Valet. A Tip job is what I have to have right now so, I can live day to day. I've improved my resume, walked into businesses and asked for job, applied via email, walked in and left my resume to show I'm serious at locations running ads. NOTHING, no response of any kind. I've done everything I can and nothing. Hell yes, I'm down in the dumps, I'm broke and not a single job offer coming my way. I look and apply for jobs everyday, either in person or over the net (when they want it that way) and nothing. This really sucks!

A frozen breakfast burrito and a cup of coffee later, feeling a bit better.

I welcome any ideas or possible reasons to lack of responses to all the hard work I've put in. Meanwhile, I need to start packing.

How Do I ?

Well, I checked one of net sites again today (several times a day) and saw that one of the jobs I applied for on friday has been re-added. Do I go back and reapply for the job or move on? They never even called me. I don't know what to do? This is so frustrating.

Fixed "Comment As" Issues

Hi Gang, I finally found out how to fix the "comment as" issues. What a pain in the butt! It will appear as a pop up now. Sorry it took so long for me to get it fixed.

I Need Help

I've been actively looking for work for the past 3 weeks and no job offers yet. Been looking for 2 years really. Really Hard for the last 3 weeks. I have $60 in my checking account and my cc has enough room incase I have to go back to the doctor. Panic has set in today. I've revamped my resume, changed my process a dozen times and done everything I'm suppose to do. Yesterday was an awesome day, finally got a full nights sleep last night, and today I'm dragging on the floor. Whether or not I have a job, I'm out of my hotel on thursday. At first I thought the rash on my fingers was from too much sun on friday, but its getting worse, so I think it's from the stress. My ear is feeling better, which is a huge relief. I can either eat this week or drive to the 4-corners and check my mail with the money I have left. I need help

Just Love Good Days

Today was a good day. Got a great look at the bus system today and the light rail system. Found out that one job that I was applying for is a month away from starting, but I left my stuff anyway. The other one involves a sharp looking black uniform with a green tie (for the guys) and I would love to get a chance at that job, even if its part time. I even got about 3 miles of walking in today. Tired! Now, all together today I took 4 busses and 2 trains to get to both jobs. Each one of those was about 50 minutes each.

TMJ

Saturday morning and getting my day figured out. Thursday I started to struggle with my left ear, it was hurting and that alone was bothering me. I found one of those quick stop clinic places and had them check it for me. He said that its not an infection, but build up of fluids. Well, ear pain is ear pain. So, some decongestant to help dry up my head. I do a hot rag on my ear twice a day to help it drain some and a lot of tugging on the lobe. It's not putting me down, but doesn't let me forget that I have an issue there. He said that my TMJ is bad enough where as I get older, I may have more issues in the future. Time will tell on that one.

99 degrees

Wow, I forgot what 99 degrees feels like. Especially 99 degrees in the concrete canyon. Ooh Boy! I managed to get two things done today, planned to done. Doesn't sound like much, but it took 4 hours, especially by local shuttle. So glad I didn't drive today! Cooler tomorrow, I should be able to get more done. An hour in the heat trying to find my way, drinking liquids, I was fading fast. The sun was starting to eat away at my insides, I was getting too hot. I get hot than sick and I'm down for the count. So, I headed back to the bus station and got my bus back to my car. Amazing how things change in 20 years! New bridges, new buildings, lots of new things. I never would have found my way around or found an exit... Bought a 5-day pass so I don't have to drive this week. Despite the heat, today was a good day!

New Drive

Okay, reborn! A night camping in the woods does wonders. Back at my hotel with New drive and new jobs to go after. Wish me luck tomorrow, I have a long day. I made some changes to my resume as well today.

Not Hiring!

Well, a manager at one of my follow-ups told me a different story, she said that they aren't hiring until late august. Basic tune I got from the rest. So, I drove up the hills and took a break. Honestly been crying all afternoon. Clear out of ideas! I'm down to the fast food and cashier work. The last time I did cashier work, I got robbed at gun point, not doing that again. Fast food isn't blow me, but that sure is scraping the bottom of the bowl. It's never been this hard to find work. I've struggled but always landed a decent job, enough to pay the bills. I'm pretty well devastated this afternoon. Hopefully, I feel better tomorrow.

Too Hot to Sleep!

It's been almost 4 weeks since I put everything in storage and moved out of my place. I've learned a few things. One: is to listen to my gut more and follow thru if permission is given. If permission isn't given, keep going until it is. In doing this, I found stores, businesses and even communities where I have to just keep going. Tomorrow, no plans have been given to me and I have tried to make plans for tomorrow and they fall into a black hole. So, I will set out to do 2 things, move out of my hotel room and follow up on a couple of jobs. Beyond that, well, I guess I will see. Two: is to let it flow, deal with my emotions while they live and find away to get past it. There maybe a new switch in me that gets me straightened out and allows me to move forward. Many of you will have no clue what I'm saying, but there are a few who do understand what I'm saying. I've always been this deep, put so much thought into everything and been so (everyone has their own word they use to describe me) stubborn, brazen, misunderstood, etc...

Can't sleep because its hot in my room and I hate AC, so the door is open for fresh air. I dislike AC in hotels, because they're LOUD and I can't hear what is going on outside my room.

The oil spill could really do deep emotional damage to me, because I feel so deeply. It does make me sick that the US and BP are more concerned with saving the reputation of BP over the enviroment and yeah the little guy is nothing more then a slave to help make big corp richer. BP taking their sweet time getting equipment to the golf to get this mess solved. And yes, the US not allowing the other countries to jump in and help. Damit we're the first ones on the ground when they call, allow them to return the favors. I applaud the communities along the coasts jumping in to get what they can done and telling the EPA to shove it for being to safe after the oil is in the water. The news here SUCKS, so I rely on a friend over seas to feed some to me.

Thats my rant for tonight.

Barking Dogs!

One must walk more then usual to find out what shitty shoes we own. I packed about 6 pairs (not including 2 pair of hiking boots) and after an hour or so in either of them, the dogs-r-barking!!!! I just spent an hour trying on real shoes and the dogs-r-barking. I found one pair of sneakers that are perfect, but I wasn't looking for a pair of them. The guy helping me found a pair of high-end italian shoes (on sale) and they fit great, but they're ugwy! lol My Burks are shot and my softts are for the suite I brought. Down to $3.00 walmart flip flops and I can't job hunt in those. Wow! Right now, the dogs are barking too much to put anything on them. Actually no $ to buy any (cc only), but I sure needed to know what my options are on them.

Did a few follow-ups this morning and owners at one are back tomorrow. Not hiring at the others.

Have to move out my hotel tomorrow. Was hoping for a face-to-face today with the owners and was told they would be reachable today. I got bad info.

I know it sounds like all I do is bitch and complain, but I'm actually paying attention and trying to figure out a better way or at the every least a solution.

Well, time to figure out lunch! May just go back to room. Theres food there!

A Good Day

Well, the morning started out lousy, but it went uphill fast and I actually got some stuff done. Ended up having an awesome morning. What's even better, it's getting easier to talk to people. :D

Questioning Everything

Last night, I had a plan all worked out for today and this morning I'm questioning everything I'm doing and have done up to this point. Sorta depressing actually. Maybe the stress of being broke is setting in. It may seem like I've only been on this job search for a few weeks, when in all actuality I've been on it for 2 years. I've even attempted to start a business that simply went no place no matter the effort I put towards it. Its hard to start something when they are laughing at you. So, back to looking for work full time from part time and still nothing. Frustrating to say the least. Somedays I wonder where in the hell I belong. I'll do what I can today and hope for the best.

The cover letter was for a possible job that all of a sudden changed their tune and needed one to even get looked at.

Funny how it takes The Teutul's on OCC to get me laughing at their stupidity. Too Funny!

Saturday Blues

Well, yesterday morning was one of those days where I'm at the same level as 2 millions others, the thought process of being complete & utter failure at everything I try to succeed at. I did my laundry, spent too much on lunch and came back to my cheap motel room. Not fighting any of the stuff I'm feeling, simply allowing it to flow. By late afternoon, I was able to get a huge task done that I hate, writing a cover letter. They are the most difficult letter to write, because it has so many variables; make sure personality comes through, ability to do the job and professionalism. Crazy! As I look at it this morning, it needs a bit of adjustment, but it's good enough to use for other businesses with a few changes. Glad I got it done :)

Job Search "Road Blocks"

Well, it has been interesting to say the least. You used to be able to walk into a business and ask for a job and 50% chance you would hear from them. Then, the applications were taken and held for a time period and you might hear from them. Now, you apply for jobs online and probably a 10% chance of hearing from them and some businesses want you to give them full access to your credit report before even talking to anyone. Now, I'm finding that you may leave a resume, but don't plan on doing a follow-up with the business, because so far I've found that managers do not take phone calls from anyone expect from the boss or venders.

So, all methods of looking for work has been changed to a point where the world is one Big Fat Unknown on figuring out how to find work. Worse, is not knowing the reasons why an able body who wants to work is never even called for even a simple phone interview. Both frustrating and confusing. I'm aware that I'm one of ?# who are applying for work, but not having something set up to confirm resumes have been received is lazy business. Out of the several dozen I've sent out, I've gotten a single (1) confirmation.

So, that leaves me with this one question; Has the employment status fallen back to "it's who you know!" ?

Thoughts?

Nature

Not much to report. Job search continues, tricky when not applying online.

June Weather

Well, snow in mid June and we must be living in Colorado. I missed the snow on the "local" route heading north today, but the mountain tops were showing a lot of new snow. It looked so smooth from here I was, it could easily be a couple of feet worth. It's the mass moving week to Telluride for Blue Grass and I hope they packed their long john and parkas, because that area will get some snow tonight. Oh well! We need the snow, if you can believe that. Last month was SO hot that all the rivers are running over thier banks. So, new snow will replace some what melted too early, too fast. Have a good week!

Pretty

Moo!


Disappearing Mountain!!

High Skys

Places to live! Why?

There are places where people live because they know no other. There are places where people live because family moved to the area. There are places where people live because it where their college is located. There are places where people live because it has opportunities where "home" does not. There are places where people live that offers the best location for the sport of choice. There are places where people live because the kind of work they do is only offered in those places. There are places where people live where the spirits pull them towards. Where do you live and why do you live there? In Colorado, there are ski towns by winter, tourist town by summer. Towns where a form of mining still goes on. Towns where colleges is the main attraction. Towns where people gather after a long day out on the fields with the herd. Towns where no matter the weather, there is no way they will move away. There are towns that are now great cities with traffic, bus lines, people on bikes, and even a few flying kites. So what makes a town a place to move too? Is it the coolest place on the planet? Is it the place to ski? Is it the place to go to school and never leave? Is it the town that offers one a real chance at life with the abundant opportunities available? Is it a town high in the mountains which allows you to hide from the outside world? For most of my life I have moved to places "where it felt good" and that is all it offered on the first glance. I have moved to places where I hoped to make a life after college and found that the jobs simply disappear into thin air. I've moved to places because a man wanted me along and ended up worse then where we just left from. Lady's Don't Ever Move to a place because a man wants you too. You make Dam sure you can make a life for yourself when he cheats on you or simply leaves you there. I am in no way against men, but some of them can't sit still. One thing I learned was if he cheats on you once, he will 100% do it again. Anyway, back to where people live. I've been searching for my home for what seems like years. Home is a big shoe to fill. Home has to have more then one item inside. It has to have more then "because it's a cool place" or just a "place where my friends are". It has to have these and many more. Moving to a town has to be where a life can be built and with luck build a successful business. There has to be many things that fuel why a person lives where they do. Where am I moving too? Well, can't say that just yet, but I am working towards a town for all the right reasons, with the ability to put more items in the shoe from day one. Look for more pritures of travels.

Red Hill Pass

Campgrounds,

They are never boring. Yesterday at 5 and 6am, 2 separate folks opened their car doors before deactivating the alarm. Ooooops! So, much for being quiet between 10pm and 8am. I felt worse for the guy at 5am, he was really struggling to get it turned off. I was awake, but some weren't.

This morning around 3:15am, a car rolled on the interstate and hit a power pole. I heard a huge Snap and like metal bending under pressure. 20 minutes later, ALL of the 911 services are at the entrance with lights going. It sounded like a big branch broke and landed on somebody's rv awning, so I figure somebody got hurt too. I'm awake now, might as well walked out to the entrance to see what was going on and it turned out that the power line was down feeding the park. This morning, as I'm pulling out, I saw the line is still down and look to my left and see what snapped. It was the power pole itself, right in half. The transformer is laying on the ground. Picture of damages!



Off to my next adventure!

Sunrise Yesterday!

Better then yesterday!

Well, a good nights sleep where life never stops always helps. Today has been a better day. Up at the first lights of gray and an hour later I found a campground a mile down the road, hadn't got that far yet! So, I saw that as permission to try again. Headed back to party city, got a shower, did my laundry and thought about things. Dressed for success, but having an impossible time locating employment offices. Phone books are wrong, getting wrong directions. I should have just figured it out myself, would have saved about 90 minutes of time. Oh well. I have pictures, I'll get them loaded later.

No Camping!!!

That is the sign you see any parking area in Boulder County. Plus there isn't an established campground in boulder county either. I was going to cook my dinner I bought and there was another sign I saw off to the side "No fire grills and stoves" in the picnic area. So, You either show up with $ or don't bother. I guess they don't need me that bad, thats how I feel right now. Bummer, it has lots to offer beside skiing in the winter and t-shirt shops in the summer.

New Month

And waking up in a new town. A town I spend three summers in over 25 years ago. Interesting seeing it today and driving a car and not a bike. BTW, I was in really good shape in those days, I rode all over this town on my mountain bike. Only a small few would know where I am right now. Interesting to see what it offers me as an adult!