Not Much Sleep

When I got here, it felt okay to be here. But last night I learned that the only person who wants me around is my mom. The family, the help, the neighbors and many others do not. I deleted pretty much the rest of my family from my social media accounts and down to a handful of friends. What makes me sad is the realization is that no one in my family wants me around. For most of the night I struggled with this information and tried to figure out what if any options I have. Stay and continue to be in their face until my Mother passes or leave and break her heart, which would make them happy that I left and mad at me for breaking her heart. If I left, I would be cutting all ties with all of them. My life sucks on either way I go...