Changes with New Year

Everyone makes promises to self to lose weight, quit smoking, spend more time in the gym, etc... Let's try something different this year. Everyone is in agreement that this year sucked and many ways to everyone. The new approach to bring in the New Year is, let's each write down all the yucky stuff of 2009, (our stuff-not news making stuff), and let it go. Forgive self or others for what ever happened whole heartily so you can move on without it. Once you've allowed yourself to let it go, you will feel lighter in that area and then the next. Making 2010 better is in our own laps to improve, not only for ourselves but for everyone we are personally in contact with. If we can strength ourselves first then there is a better chance we can improve everything around us. It may not be easy, for it will take work, but the pay off will be huge and continuous for days, months and possibly years to come. I wish all of you good luck and much strength for the New Year and Great Success.

Got to be Santa Today

My spring job allowed me to be Santa for a family of 5 today. This economy sucks so bad, it just breaks me heart. Telling this story will be hard to keep all information out of it for privacy reasons, so bear with me. how do I write this... I've been seeing families, single parents taking their chances with the dice at early loans; most getting approved, some not getting approved. A very special couple rolled 7's this morning and got enough money to buy presents for their kids and pay a couple of bills. When the loan amount reached mom's heart, tears rolled down her cheeks with relief. By the time they left and hearing the out loud thoughts of relief and being able to buy a few presents Today was so overwhelming, they had me in tears by the time they left. I'm so glad I was able to do something for them, true victims unknown in Washington DC in this shitty economy. They got a bit more, but $500 can change everything for the better in the simplest ways.

The Secret Giving at Christmas

One year, Christmas wasn't too far off and behind the scenes a large group of people where gathering gifts for all the children who were either homeless or Orphans. Everything was getting decorated in red, green and white with the Santa suit off to the cleaners for the Christmas party. Everyone was shopping at toy stores, bookstores, and area clothing stores. The Christmas party was here and 50 children were arriving in their best outfits, smiles from ear to ear when the tree comes into sight. All of 25 foot high and covered with ornaments made of stuffed toys with name tags for each child. It truly was a beautiful afternoon. Santa came down the stairs with bags of presents in toe and the scream of joy completely filled the room when they saw Santa in all his red and real beard. All the adults were speechless, there where no words. Santa called out each child by name and each child got a bag filled with gifts just for them. Wrapping paper flying and laugher filled the room for all most 3 hours. Hot Coco was passed around with small sandwiches to fill the tired tummies. Soon, the party was ending, but the smiles couldn't wiped off those little faces for nothing. Some bags where bigger then the child, but they had no problem getting out to the vans they arrived in.

Much to my surprise, on Christmas eve, a few days after the party, upon arriving home I found two huge boxes 3 foot high over flowing with presents. They were just out of reach of my loud and fluffy guard dog. Santa also had me in mind that year. I had presents to open for a good half hour on Christmas morning. There was even some for my doggy to enjoy. I found food, books, clothes, a 6-pack of beer, and other odds and ends. My Christmas tree wasn't 25 foot high, but the idea of a tree was present in my home.

So, what may seem small for those who are buying gifts for some they may only work with or may not even know at all. Bringing the secret gift of Christmas for another can move a person totally and completely. The receiver of the gifts may be one who has always been the buyer of gifts and totally believed in the giving, if that is the case, they are also totally changed and even more passionate about buying gifts for others. It may only be price tags for those who are buying the gifts, but for those who are receiving them, a value can't be placed on them.

Everyone have a wonderful Christmas this year.

Sunset Pictures

Weekends

Well, weekends are crazy. This weekend was tough too, but I got through it. The snow storm was too far north from California, so it went north toward Grand Junction. Tomorrow is another week.

Loneliness

I'm lonely. I have no boyfriend, I have no buddies. People have tons of advise, like join groups, move someplace else, hang out at bars. Truth is I've done all of those and many times and the only people who wants to hang out with me are druggies, drunks, and that isn't what I need in my life. I don't know how to solve this issue.

12-1-09

I just love the first day of a new month. My day was awesome. It was confirmed that I can start keeping track of the time I spend training for one of my jobs, because I will get paid for that time. It has been one struggle after after another, but I love it when stuff starts to fit into place. It could be some of the simplest things that start the process. On the way to get my mail, a friend called who needed to be cheered up and with humor and respect and lots of laughs, the phone call ended with grins. Being needed is SOOOOO Important to be a whole person. On the way, some cows were running around chasing each other and playing. I have a ton of homework to get done here VERY soon, but I'm getting it done.

Its been a very good day!

Its a New Month

Yea, its a new month. Me like new months... The yucky stuff of last month is gone. Its something I have grown to appreciate since I had to put my boobaa down in May. Now, I'm doing good. Had a funny memory yesterday and my day was a good day. I got called into work and I love being needed. Everyone should be needed on a regular basis.

Christmas is almost here and then best of all a brand new year.

Hugs to everyone...