Tough Day

First, I want to apologize for almost every sentence starting with "I" in the effort to express myself to help everyone understand. Sometimes, I just have to vent and put stuff out there and see what comes back; this method hasn't let me down yet. Well, today has been a tough day. Especially when it comes to my new business venture. My phone hasn't rung in months and as the days roll by, the more I get the feeling that there is a black cloud hanging over my head and I'm surrounded by walls built by others. I've done a lot of soul searching to figure what the issue is, but the only answer I can come up with is most if is outside of me. I've asked for advise from my fellow inspectors and have received no answers of any kind. I've always known that I've been misunderstood in my approach into things that matter, and I've been looked at like a trouble maker by others. I am who I am, 3 hours researching my astrology make-up has shown me that a lot of the things I do were prewritten. I did need to be reminded of who I am and how I think, how I approach things and part of the reason why I'm very single with zero prospects, and I'm ok with that, for now. I so badly want to do this business, but am struggling to break through the walls that are up and I'm proud of my customer services skills and my ability to do this job. I want to make a difference in my life and think I can do it inspecting homes for others in hopes to ensure that everyone is safe in the new homes they're investing their life savings into such an investment. I'm pretty stubborn when it comes to giving up on a goal and I don't want to give on this. My family has invested time and financially in this business and all of us are apart of it. Like I said, its hard for me to quit until it has been made clear as day that the deck is stacked against me of ever moving forward. I 'feel' the stack is there, but have seen little to no evidence yet and its beyond the slow economy of houses getting closed on. I've paid close attention to the 'feelings' I get and when they become a hunting thing, I have to turn and see if I can figure out what they are. Pretty sure it isn't anything I have done, it's something that has been built from the outside. When I ran my coffee business, my customers matter to me and what they thought mattered to me, enough to keep me in business longer than anyone even thought possible. My business is my clients and without them, I don't have a business. Saturday at my spring job, I was able to get money from clients who owed from last year; something no one else could get done and I was totally respectable and successful, proof my customer service skills are in great shape. Thus my confusion in what the issue is on my business venture. Now, that I've given all lots to think about and maybe somebody will find an answer when they least expect it and can let me know. I do appreciate everyone, even when it seems like I don't. Thanks for reading this, I do appreciate it.