"Life Code" & "Healing Your Aloneness"

What I'm going to write about isn't to toot my own horn or seeking pity from others, only to express myself because I feel I need too. I am this person who is always looking to better myself for me, through different books, observing others, observing myself with others and talking to people who are smarter then I.

I too have been reading "Life Code" and found that I could easily be misunderstand by what he is saying. The key note is that I do struggle with relationships; the reason is I choose NOT to settle! I don't settle for any man just so I don't have to be alone. I don't settle for any friend if it's not equal between us. I don't settle for jobs I've had in the past, but will do my best to learn everything they can teach me while earning a paycheck. I'm a loner because it is safer for me, (I don't want to be all the time), but sometimes choosing not be around someone keeps all of me safe and my morals intact. I'm not a perfect person and I don't know everything; as someone close to me once said; "We are a family of tons of pieces of information, not specializing in just one area!" I want so much to trust people around me and it is earned as well as respect, and when I finally see the true person, then I distance myself from them if I can't trust them, especially if they go against my morals or just plain lack of respect. Be careful not to judge too quickly on what is written, because a person can have one or two of the traits in each section of ten or twelve named and could be wrong to toss them aside. Does that make sense to you? In my case, I struggle with relationships and DON'T seek to hurt someone for self-profit! In fact, I'm protecting myself!

I've also been reading "Healing Your Aloneness" and that has been a true eye opener for me. Why it took me 20 years to find the book, I'll never know, but it is helping me to better understand what makes me tick. Which is what I've been working so hard in my life to figure out or simply get a better idea. I had to reread pages 5-10 at least three times before I could get through it without crying. Not saying I was, but only that was what I was shown from those on how the grown-ups were taught by their grown-ups. I've lost my place in the book, but it is a slow read if one is serious about self discovery! Between "Life Code" and "Healing Your Aloneness," I have some work to do.

I'm aware that the world lives around "First Impression's Don't Lie." I'm the reverse, I think first Impressions are as fake as a credit card!!!!!! They're an act out of nerves and remembering to breath! As I get ready to car camp, it will give me more time to work on what matters and maybe even have a real "Haha" moment that I can really move forward in my life!