Happiness

Happiness to me is having friends in my life and financially supporting myself. I remember when I had friends and I was happy. They were people who needed me outside of my blood relatives. I haven't had friends in 5 years and I miss having them. I moved to school and everyone was on their cell phone or in their groups smoking cigs and frankly didn't have room for anyone new. So, I went to school and I went home. After giving it some thought, I'm not sure living in town would have changed that situation. Well, the job market fell out of the bottom out east so I moved back to where I knew I had friends. Well, they had their own lives and didn't have room for me either. I made contact with them all several times and it just wasn't the same. By this time, I was so desperate for buddies I was most likely acting like a complete fool in trying too hard. Well, for the past year I've lived some place where I have neighbors and they're nice people. However, for some odd reason none of them speak to me much less look in my direction when I'm outside. Go figure! I'm out of here and out of my element, out of my comfort zone to kick start me. Wish me luck on my venture to get a life built someplace else. Meeting new people, making friends and working to support myself again. I'm not saying I don't want help or need anyone. I'm saying that I've haven't been on my own in a few years and forgotten how to do it and this is where I remind myself how to do it. Hugs